No.7121
>>7118I hate images of "sensitivity scale" or whatever it's called so much
>Positive output -> Positive income>too vagueWhat do
No.7194
>>7192Oh no… I had actually typed out a section where I mentioned that I'm open to doing everything except for religious activities, but I ended up deleting it as it seemed unnecessary.
I've committed my word, which means I'm now bound to follow through on this. Thanks
If anyliz has anything that doesn't collide, feel free to add
No.7195
Almost 6 hours spent on New Testament and seeking info online about it.
>Give your heart and soul to Jesus Christ
Well to fulfill that it's not necessary to read that pile of garbage.
I'm just going to jump onto New Testament.
Beatiful shitposting loop of dude bred then died over and over again. AH truly sacred text
>6 When Seth had lived one hundred five years, he became the father of Enosh. 7 Seth lived after the birth of Enosh eight hundred seven years, and had other sons and daughters. 8 Thus all the days of Seth were nine hundred twelve years; and he died.9 When Enosh had lived ninety years, he became the father of Kenan. 10 Enosh lived after the birth of Kenan eight hundred fifteen years, and had other sons and daughters. 11 Thus all the days of Enosh were nine hundred five years; and he died. 12 When Kenan had lived seventy years, he became the father of Mahalalel. 13 Kenan lived after the birth of Mahalalel eight hundred and forty years, and had other sons and daughters. 14 Thus all the days of Kenan were nine hundred and ten years; and he died. 15 When Mahalalel had lived sixty-five years, he became the father of Jared. 16 Mahalalel lived after the birth of Jared eight hundred thirty years, and had other sons and daughters. 17 Thus all the days of Mahalalel were eight hundred ninety-five years; and he died. 18 When Jared had lived one hundred sixty-two years he became the father of Enoch. 19 Jared lived after the birth of Enoch eight hundred years, and had other sons and daughters. 20 Thus all the days of Jared were nine hundred sixty-two years; and he died. 21 When Enoch had lived sixty-five years, he became the father of Methuselah. 22 Enoch walked with God after the birth of Methuselah three hundred years, and had other sons and daughters. 23 Thus all the days of Enoch were three hundred sixty-five years. 24 Enoch walked with God; then he was no more, because God took him. 25 When Methuselah had lived one hundred eighty-seven years, he became the father of Lamech. 26 Methuselah lived after the birth of Lamech seven hundred eighty-two years, and had other sons and daughters. 27 Thus all the days of Methuselah were nine hundred sixty-nine years; and he died. 28 When Lamech had lived one hundred eighty-two years, he became the father of a son; 29 he named him Noah, saying, “Out of the ground that the Lord has cursed this one shall bring us relief from our work and from the toil of our hands.” 30 Lamech lived after the birth of Noah five hundred ninety-five years, and had other sons and daughters. 31 Thus all the days of Lamech were seven hundred seventy-seven years; and he died. 32 After Noah was five hundred years old, Noah became the father of Shem, Ham, and Japheth.
No.7197
I meant 6 for Old, not New*
No.7205
I want a total mind reset. Just, totally erase all of my opinions and put me in therapy to get re-adjusted to the world.
No.7209
I hate people walking their dogs. Most of the time they are well behaved but there are these few instances when they'll get too close, bark or be agressive. And it's not like you can be certain what type of dogs and owners will be trouble. The worst I have had to deal with was some tiny grandma's piece of garbage that unexpectedly bit on my leg.
And keep them on a leash for fuck's sake. I don't care that your fleabag is "very nice and friendly haha :-)" I don't want it sniffing me and I don't want to play with it.
No.7210
>>7209>keep them on a leash for fuck's sakeOops, I never use it but understand your point of view.
Most people are too dumb to train theirs.
Screw your granda's rat. I would have no remorse and send it flying with a kick.
I always keep my cool around any other dogs as compensation makes it worth to get bitten lol
Maybe looking at this like that will help you.
Mine doesn't sniff, worst she will throw you a stick and run away far awaiting for your action.
It's energetic breed (not my choice) and follows my every command so it runs free.
biting it's ear and pretending to eat from the bowl was sure worth it! No.7214
>>7213you're going crazy, life is not so difficult.
what you need are some trials to figure yourself out
No.7215
Woah I didn't notice unnecessary "is" at start.
>>7214I'm not saying it is. Just that's rough to live with myself.
I am the one with issues, not life, aware of that.
>some trials to figure yourself outLike what? Name few and I will go for them
No.7216
>>7215I think I kinda was a bit of an ass there.
Sometimes it just gets tough though. Don't mind it. I think the best way to keep forward is starting to look forward to the future.
I'm sure living and believing this is gonna help a lot.
No.7217
>>7216>was a bit of an ass therehaha not at all
>look forward to the futureYeah when you have some goals or stuff to want done then sure, then sure.
Got none like that.
Hmm most likely I am just overthinking shit. Will try to dumb down, will post how it went
No.7219
>>7218Shit happens Liz, from what you were running away?
If you have the need to dose from time to time maybe get something less destructive.
I hate alcohol, the line between feeling great and losing memory is too thin. Also hangovers suck, never worth it.
No.7220
>>7219Shit day.
Now I am slightly better, just gotta avoid feeding the bad things.
>>7217I think eventually you might figure it out. I figured out what I wanted to do with life the moment I realized most of my thoughts weren't really my own and it was just the same as schizos on imageboards believed.
No.7221
>>7219>Also hangovers suck, never worth it.Hangovers are strangely rare for me. I might have had one or two but not enough to count.
>from what you were running away?My house is host for a real piece of shit, and I am doomed to
coexist with this fucktard.
At least until I get a good enough job that lets me live somewhere else, but then comes my sister with this stupid thing about
you gotta live with your dad so that the land isn't usurped by others and i just wis- no, I will soon enough send it all to hell and just build a life of my own.
I don't care about the loss in money, I just want to be able to be at fucking peace for one second of my life.
No.7222
There's too much to know. Too much to learn. I really don't care about the outside world. Still, I have to learn to live. I can't be without skills. Also, to the people I knew of in highschool or my previous jobs, I'm dead. Don't talk to me. I just want to be alone.
No.7223
>>7222>too much to know. Too much to learnThat's what happens when you wake up too late, I'm in the same spot though. Too bothersome to catch up, hitting exit sounds like good alternative for me.
>>7221>so that the land isn't usurped by othersWhat, how does it works?
If it's like that I would try to survive there. Houses are too expensive
No.7225
>>7223It's common for people to just take others land here
No.7227
Politics are everywhere. Just leave me alone. No more people. No more society. I just want to stay in my room. Too bad I have to work on my feet. More suffering.
No.7229
>>7227>Too bad I have to workAh a fellow wageslavie, whatcha doin
This job made me feel e-commerce and anything related to it.
JUST 3 MORE MONTHS TO SURVIVE, unless they kick me sooner which would be unfavorable and that has high chances.
GRRR hear how angry I am at everything!!
No.7233
>>7229I do retail at a gas station. The job's tiring and my legs hurt, but I leave at 3 PM at the latest, so I can rest for the rest of the day.
No.7239
>>7233Update: The gas station is getting more customers and management wants us to pick up the pace. We'll still be paid the same, of course, but we just have to move faster. I don't think they're going to be assigning more workers, either. I want to leave.
No.7245
Too bad you don't have an Aldi nearby. Their cashiers have stools.
No.7248
>>7247One day, long ago, I decided to use Linux Mint. When using it, I realized a lot of programs, like their document program, ran faster. Also, their version of "windows explorer" or whatever was also faster. Microsoft word always froze up when saving, pasting, etc. while explorer would freeze up when searching. Never for Linux. I don't like using the command line very much, but I much prefer it over the Windows command line. It's way more powerful, flexible, and accessible imo. Nowadays, I've only used linux on my laptop, but it's finally lost network connectivity, so I stopped using it. I might get it repaired or something.
No.7257
>JUST 3 MORE MONTHS TO SURVIVE, unless they kick me sooner
Oops, got kicked out 2 weeks ago.
But my mood is better now.
I think that the issue was being too active mentally with no proper way of reliefing stress.
After getting bored and staring at walls/lying down for most of 3 days it did the magic.
Will test this one out when I feel terrible again.
Also stopped reading Bible, sorry to Liz who recommended it.
It's just not for me.
No.7277
>>7257It's been about a week and a half. How are you doing? Are you staying clean and sleeping well? Do you have a place to stay? I hope you stay safe out there. At least in the U.S., the pigs like to harass homeless people.
No.7278
I find it pretty much impossible to do drugs like alcohol, watch mo
YO What the heck?
The formatting on this post screwed up big time.
Okay, it's back to normal.
Anyways, it's hard for me to do drugs or watch movies. I can't really celebrate holidays, either. My brain says to keep doing the same stuff and that starting things is hard. Also, work gets me tired, and after sleeping after work, I only have like, four hours to do stuff, so I want to have fun. You can't blame me for that, can you?
No.7292
My mind is a prison and sleep is the key
I want this nightmare to end
I want to be FREE
The internet is the jailer,
My prison is vast,
My world is a sea of gray
present mixes with past
I'm tired, man. While in some people's youth, they regret their choices and ignorance when they were kids, but instead of that, I made no choices. Life has become a blur that passes me by. And while these things, people, events, pass me by, I find myself unable to care or even express myself. I see kids younger than me go on to other things while I feel like I'm in a time loop. Even typing this out or saying all this, I have these doubts in my head. Even wizchan and this site give me no relief. I see the sad posts on wizchan and I end up feeling nothing. I come to this place, and it's pretty much dead. There's really no other place I go to.
If this were a video game, I would have turned off the system and restarted my game, but I can't restart my life and I don't want to turn it off.
No.7293
woo bud, sounds like you gotta let go of many things and ideals that are keeping you weak and strive for the best from this clean image of yourself.
No.7294
>>7292What
>>7293 Liz said.
Also that may sound like rambling, but maybe it will help you like it did for me.
You should get rid of someone's thoughts/views about you from your head.
Untill you realize that these thoughts are fake and basically previous experiences on loop, it's gonna hurt.
I mean, it's super rare to self hate without experiencing it first from outside world.
No.7297
>>7296Yes, I'd like to be normal, but it seems I forgot the memo and got stuck in these lairs for too long.
No.7298
>>7297>I'd like to be normalAhahah. Wrong chan buddy
What's up with people like you? Going to places where others are reclusive by choice.
To cry about loneliness and their failed normie life.
Can't you just fuck off to a place dedicated for such issues?
Why shit all over this place with your normal faggotry…
Is this concept so hard to grasp?
No.7300
>>7298It's not healthy to believe things that way bud.
No.7301
>>7300>not healthy to believe things that wayHaha what way? Sounds like you have some interesting backstory about me.
I just pointed to look somewhere while being a dick about it.
Can do it nicely too. LOOK
>>7295Hewlo, if imageboards are not for you…
Perhaps finding some friends in online game might help you.
There are also discord groups but idk how that works.
Honestly the best place to find a friend is getting a penpal through Slowly app.
thought I needed something like that and left after realizing it being different cause Social medias are not a place for it.
It is a lengthy process but I believe that everyone can find their soulmate if they try long enough.
>Will I be forever alone?No, don't worry about it. Some day you will not feel like that but first you must put some effort into it and keep trying.
FIRST STEP WOULD BE RESPECTING THE FUCKING NORMS ON SOME DEAD SITE THEN TRY IRL. WITHOUT THAT YOU WILL BE A ANNOYING FUCK-UP LIKE YESTERDAY
No.7393
Sometimes I think "I don't want to do this any more", but I don't know what I don't want to do. The closest thing that comes to mind is "everything". It's not about doing something else in life, but life itself is tiring. I'm sure other people have thought this before, too. I also get this weird feeling or realization that I am one of many people in my community, city, county, state, country, etc. There are other people around, and it's just that we're all separated by our houses. Weird feeling.
No.7443
>>7442>IT'S A KILLER MIGRAINE I wish
No.7444
>>7443no killing just a lot of puking.
Right after preparing bunch of food the aura hit me.
Well with the plate full it would be shame to wait few hours.
I should chew more
