No.6011
I'm on trial period as warehouseman.
It's my second day but I'm still stressing rather hard.
Since Thursday I'm having tics which are rather annoying and strong. It's first time when they didn't go away the next day which worries me.
At least they weren't as hard as yesterday.
Today I started categorising my liked music on youtube while doing it I noticed that some bands released new albums unfortunately only sellout crap then disband lol
No.6013
Worked my wageslave job, made some dinner, played some ODST on legendary. I want to beat it on legendary by the end of the weekend and maybe start Reach afterwards. I will update you all once I do that.
No.6014
Went wageslaving, not that much to do there. Still stressed hard.
Boss asked me if I'm okay with giving out ppl freebies on the street so I tried.
It was too hard for me to advertise his company and was stuttering while talking to randoms.
After finishing this whole thing prematurely my tics got worse.
Fortunately he's rather understanding and wasn't angry at me for coming back sooner.
On Monday I have to know how to set up seagate srn01c.
Check what equipment do we need to set up the server with shop site + UPS. (I have no freaking idea how to to do it atm)
Aaaand look for some WiFi cameras and know how to set it up in theory.
At least I finally have something to do.
it's not hard, right? >>6012Hellsing ultimate or the first one? If the second you should definitely watch ultimate
No.6016
>>6013sorry, not feeling it today. I'll probably take a break from ODST for like, half a year and probably forget about it now.
No.6017
>>6014>Hellsing ultimate or the first one? The former, though I think I didn't understand shit. I feel like the ending completely flew over my head with how
Alucard became a loli, how he died, anything to do with his past, and the Mayor being a robot. May need to rewatch it later down the road
No.6018
Scouted for monitoring systems.
It's actually cheaper to buy a kit (dvr + cameras) than buy cameras separately and linking it to pc. Didn't expect it honestly.
Managed to set up a network drive.
Wasted like 2 hours on it. I thought the system on it was bugged. Turned out I couldn't access the files on it because thing is from 2014 and settings to use such "old" device are turned off on Windows by default.
>>6017I don't remember hellsing ultimate being that confusing but it was almost 8 years ago so…
Tbh I don't even the part about him being a robot lol
No.6020
Went to bath, 'read' doujin about tomboy and shota.
Work laptop could find network drive without any changes in Windows as well as my phone through app.
On pc of boss it was visible but couldn't access the files. It redicercted me to shitty Twonky site.
I actually forgot to check if allowing those settings may harm the security device so I didn't change anything on his work station.
shit's fucked and manuals are outdated, the number of things that changed are not listed anywhereBrought it home again and gotta set it up again, ffs.
If I won't make it then gonna suggest making NAS on raspberry or some similar device.
I'm newbie when it comes to computer stuff and I have a lot to learn.
If anyliz is upset about posts related to wageslavin then I can stop anytime, just let me know.
>>6019what's troubling you?
No.6114
Today was ass…
That is all.
No.6115
>>6114Tomorrow's another day.
No.6126
>>6125Imagine waking up to a full English breakfast every day…
No.6127
>>6126umm beans and fried eggs *licks lips*. the English truly are the masters of breakfast making
No.6187
Went to the mall and got some wonton soup this afternoon. The fake pandemic doesn't seem to be keeping people inside this Halloween, plenty of retards out wearing masks though.
No.6240
>>6016Finally beat it yesterday. It was hard. Doing Reach on Heroic first and it's noticeably harder. Head shots are way harder to do for some reason and jackels now hold their shields with the LEFT hand instead of their right. I have to air for their left hand now and it's so disorientating.
No.6246
>>6242eeeh? Is it not hard or something? I definitely died a bunch. It was mostly because a few shots will kill you. Although I've not played Halo 3 in a while. I have also beaten Halo 1-3 on legendary before this. I'm definitely not the best player. I can beat legendary though. Also snipers and having to have a sniper weapon as the recruit can screw you.
No.6257
Finished scraping the tarter off my teeth a little while ago. I know that kike dentists are suppose to do it but all that build up was bugging the hell out of me. I think I did a pretty good job, almost professional I would say.
No.6262
Slept and watched anime and my day was okay I guess. Also played Fallout 4 with a fuckton of mods as in nearly 100.
No.6263
>>6262I love Fallout but I was disappointed when I saw Bethesda reveal Fallout 4. The dialogue system looks like trash. Any mods that can redeem it? Honestly I never usually play Bethesda games with anything other than unofficial patches.
No.6266
>>6263Fallout 4 anime mod
No.6358
>>6357>America is in a third wave>there are still retards who think like youIf you were doing it because you thought that warmies deserve to get covid from you I'd be on your side, especially since you not wearing a mask won't matter to you if everyone around you is wearing them. Just acting like it's fake or not a big deal is gay though. You were the real clown all along.
No.6359
>>6358Oh look, another masktard, here to give me a long boring lecture about the importance of masks and social distancing.
No.6374
Ate a big container in Chinese food. It was good. All that food made me sleepy. Need to take a nap now.
No.6445
I was packing things at the job then everything started blinking on my right eye, after some time I couldn't see shit.
Knew what was coming, killer migraine. So went home early.
Was dying in bed for 4 hours while puking from time to time.
Even taking one sip resulted in throwing it up after like 10 minutes or so.
Rolling on bed from agony I noticed that my dong was super sensitive like never before.
Fapped one out while dying and it was so amazing lmao.
After half an hour I managed to fall asleep.
13 hours already passed since it started but it still hurts. Especially when walking
Good night Lizzies
No.6447
>>6445Getting sick at work is the worst. I once started throwing up at my job and they wouldn't let me go home because no one was there to relieve me. At least I had a nearby washroom where I could throw up from time to time.
No.6500
Every weekend night, the normies above me have to watch action movies on their loud TV. How am I suppose to relax when it feels like there's an mild earthquake going on?
No.6501
>>6500Mitigate it as much as you can with earplugs/headphones. Alternatively put on some music.
No.6502
>>6500Call the cops on them.
No.6503
>>6501I always use headphones, unlike the retards above me I try to keep the noise I make to a minimal.
>>6502That might create more problems. I'd much sooner suffer in silence than feel the wrath of an angry neighbour.
No.6509
>>6500Two magical words:
Brown Noise
No.6525
>>6522Seems like everyone gets sicks of normies and just go offline or only chat one on one with people.
No.6530
>>6522I never followed the 8 crowd that closely so I don't know. I assume they're still out there.
No.6533
>>6525Is it just me or has the internet gotten much shittier this past year or so?
No.6534
>>6533Yup
That's because all the filth can't socialise in clubs and etc. so they shit on net.
Simple as that
No.6535
>>6534Damn, and I was so happy to see their precious clubs get closed down. But now you're telling me that Rex and Stacy are taking over the internet. Is there no escape from normies and their bullshit?
No.6536
>>6535>Is there no escape from normies and their bullshit?There is none, not even here.
Only death
No.6537
>>6536well, there's this place.
No.6539
>>6538hey, still no normies. am I right?
No.6540
>>6539yep, I'd agree this desolated swamp of a website is fairly normalfag free
No.6541
what's up with the wizchan hosting problems lately? even this site loads faster
No.6542
what's up with the wizchan hosting problems lately? even this site loads faster
No.6543
I played Skyrim all day. It's getting to be a grind and I wonder if I should just go back to finishing Oblivion.
Skyrim, SSE, legendary difficulty, alternative start. Started as a thief and just started grinding to make god items and avoid the vastly more powerful enemies who could one shot me. If not one shot, three shot. I'm level 90 now and I have the items and skills to craft gear to survive and to level up quickly. At least I did it.
No.6545
>>6541>>6542Dreamhost sucks. Plus there's a lot less to load here.
No.6615
I'm really hungry right now. I have food in the other room but I'm too lazy to get up and make anything
No.6698
Deposited money and it hasn't arrived on my acc yet.
3 hours have passed and I'm getting nervous.
Banks suck
No.6699
>>6698I'd be getting nervous too. it's like your money got sucked into a dark void, never to be seen again
No.6722
I don't know why but my place smells like a swimming pool. Did I spill some chlorine somewhere or something?
No.6724
>>6722Do you live near a body of water?
I don't know what a pool smells like so I don't think I would even notice it.
No.6727
>>6724A river but the smell is more pool like. I've been smelling all kinds of strange things recently, maybe I'm just losing my mind
or not showering enough.
No.6778
I love it when no one else is around and I can go up stairs in full beast mode.
No.6797
Got sick on Saturday , coughed my lungs out and had waterfall from nose.
It was okay untill Monday, now my head hurts.
No.6798
>>6797did you get the covid?
No.6799
>>6798Nah, wet cough so I'm safe.
I think it's getting better, nose is less runny, not coughing that often.
Unfortunately I'm feeling tired more and more.
Haven't had cold for like 2 years. That's a nice score
No.6800
>>6799lucky you, it seems like I get a cold at least once a year
No.6801
weather here is cooling down and it feels like I can finally relax again. hopefully it will be a long cold winter
No.6807
>>6806What do you work as lizanon if you don't mind me asking?
No.6808
>>6807I have a dreary night watchman job
No.6856
tried cheetos mac n cheese for the first time today, the jalapeno one. a little bit underwhelming, but I guess I had high expectations. the jalapeno taste came through well. would get it again
No.6860
I had a nice chill day hope you lizzies are well
No.6882
following up on
>>6856 I've tried all three flavors of cheetos mac n cheese now. my scores are as follows:
bold & cheesy - 6/10 an all right kraft dinner alternative
jalapeno - 7.5/10 best of the three, great liz grub
flamin hot - 4/10 weird as fuck, definitely not something I would eat on a regular basis
No.6948
Made some exercises for few minutes.
Felt super powerful, tho it disappeared quickly.
Now I feel sick :-d
Just trying to keep my spine in shape since it's fucked and my legs started going numb
No.6953
>>6948what kind of exercises?
No.6955
I forgot it's Christmas today :x
Well we can take the group photo on New Year's Eve, like year ago.
Ah dang that was so comfy, no wonder why today felt so lame
>>6953Some kind of crunches and push-ups.
Well that's basic stuff but it's better than nothing.
It's hard to motivate myself to do this.
Gotta work on this, it will pay off for sure.
Since spine can only get worse with age.
No.6957
>>6955Christmas sucks. It just means I have to go to the crowded mall and buy gifts, only to get judged later on because the gifts I bought are cheap and uncreative.
>crunches and push-upsWhen I get the energy (not often) I like to run laps around my apartment and do push-ups.
No.6958
>>6957Gift giving can be lots of fun if you have money and are willing to look for creative gifts.
No.6962
>>6958>if you have money:(
No.6994
>>6992I don't even remember when was the last time they I did / encountered something satisfying
Everything around here looks like shit so there is no point in going for a walk.
I wouldn't go out even if it looked nice so just ranting haha
I enjoyed walking in the city or parks after midnight when I was 13 but then stopped around 16. Don't know why
No.6998
>>6994>Everything around here looks like shitPretty much the same here but I can appreciate bad aesthetics. I have some bad stress issues and going for long walks, especially at night, is very relaxing for me.
>I did / encountered something satisfyingYou should go down to your local pond and feed the ducks, that will probably lift your mood. It sure does with me.
No.7012
man do burger king nuggets suck. if they weren't so cheap I'd never buy them
No.7023
>>7022Glad you're enjoying yourself Liz but smoking is bad for you, financially and healthily.
Rolling your own tobacco is somewhat cheaper but makes you cough a lot more.
No.7024
>>7023We all gotta die sometime liz. I might give it up after a while but right now I need to enjoy myself a little.
A cigarette rolling machine and some tubes would probably be a good investment that I will be looking into.
No.7033
>>6992Where I'm at in the USA I live in Suburban-Urban hell. Once you get out of the Suburbs, there's a road where cars go 45 mph with no sidewalks in sight. If you manage to walk in the grass near the road, the nearest things are a Walmart and a highway. All other places lead to the same or converging roads that are 45 MPH or more. 45 MPH is pretty much the slowest too. To top it all, it's not even a stroad where there are crappy sidewalks that are super dangerous since the speed limit is still too high and the stroads might to lead you across the traffic roads itself.
Hope that makes sense. Also, parks aren't open past 5PM in the winter time here, and even if I could go for a night walk, I'd be afraid of getting mugged.
No.7035
>>7033Yeah, American cities are pretty shit when a it comes to being walkable and having bike lanes. Everything was designed with cars in mind.
>afraid of getting muggedIt's the same here, but for a couple of days there was snow on the ground and it seemed to keep all the normies inside. Leaving the park clear for my night walk.
No.7036
>>7035It's not even the cities. The entirety of the USA is car-based. The cities have a bunch of stores spread out so it takes longer to get to them. I've only been to Ireland and I could see a huge difference in how cities were handled. The shops were close together and you could walk anywhere. I believe you could also take buses to different cities as well. It's not like that here in America.
Also the closest park nearby is a few miles - maybe five - away. Also the good parks close up as in they gate the parks at night.
No.7037
>>7036>the good parks close up as in they gate the parks at nightProbably either because of the gangs or homosexuals in your area. Those groups have to ruin things for everyone.
No.7039
>>7037I think they're also nature reserve or something. I mostly go to nature reserves because they're the biggest parks without much infrastructure. There's one about 30 minutes away that's like that but you can still see the roads nearby in certain places. Sad. So it's not really gangs of horny homosexuals buttfucking at night but rather state laws that close them down.
I've gone to pretty much all, if not all, nature reserves and such near my house. The closest one's I've not gone to are an hour away at least. I don't know where to go any more without dedicating a huge amount of time going to a different part of the state three hours away, renting a hotel or airbnb, and spending multiple days hiking and looking at nature. It's new to me too. Never done it. It's scary.
No.7046
Lizchan is the only once cancer-free site that I know.
As long as it stays online my mind will stay somewhat better.
Thank you for hosting
No.7047
>>7046yeah, most of the internet is just fucking horrible, this is one of the few bearable places on it
No.7062
whenever I go out in my really warm jacket the weather warms up and I sweat a lot, but when I put on my light jacket the weather cools down and I get really cold. and yes, I do look at weather reports, it doesn't really help. nature really seems to hate me
No.7066
>>7062I love the cold but the humidity blows, can't even finish one cigarette before my fingers turn red and start hurting.
My cat acts like she wants to go outside but one gust of air and her hair stands up and she hisses and claws at the door.
No.7068
>>7066same thing happened to me the other day, I was having a cigarette by the ocean watching the sun go down and I could barely hold the thing my hands were so cold
No.7084
>>7066>>7068Ahh yess, my vape broke so my nicotine addicted ass has to smoke cigs.
Now I can relate!
First day and my lungs already "feel" clogged
No.7089
>>7088Ah shit
Still better than fast food chains, good luck
No.7090
>>7089Th-thanks man I'm really looking forward too it hahahahahahaha
>>7084tar brothers unite, soon we will shed our flesh and suit ourselves entirely in tar
>>7068You live near a beach? never saw the ocean sounds comfy.
No.7093
>>7090>near a beach? Yep, I live near an outlet to the Pacific. It's nice but rivers can be just as nice.
No.7106
no more unfiltered cigarettes for this liz. my heart can't take them, it felt like shit for hours after the one I had last night
No.7108
>>7106RAW NO FUCKING FILTER CROOKED NEEDLE HOT HEAD
>>7093Yea I feel like i'd get used to them real quick, it'd be nice to have a smoke on the beach alone in those somber moments though.
No.7110
Today I actually woke up before 4 PM. I woke up at 2 PM this time. Hurray. Next, I'll try to wake up at 12 PM.
Lizzas sleep,
Lizzas meet,
Lizzas shoot bam bam bam the nigga on the street
No.7113
>>7110I woke up at 9am, fucked up and went back to sleep, then woke up a 3pm, messing up most of my day. Now I'm going to be wide awake until at least 4 am.
Gotta start turning my alarm on, I can't keep doing this. I'm sick of being on the internet all night, I want to get out and ride my bike more.
No.7114
>>7113Just woke up at 4 AM. I stayed up and I'm not going back to sleep any time soon. I hope you defeat your sleep demons.
No.7116
>>7114I'm setting my alarm now, just need to fight the urge to go back to sleep after it goes off. Thing is when I haven't gotten enough sleep I'll find myself nodding off throughout the day, falling asleep on the bus and when relaxing on the couch.
>4 AMThat's like the same time roosters wake up.
No.7117
>>7116Now I woke up at about 3:40 AM. I never fell asleep but I was deathly tired at about 12 PM. I might take a nap in the day to prevent nodding off like you mentioned. We'll see how it goes.
No.7119
I was clear for like year and half.
Decided to get some molly from the same guy as always.
That troll gave idk placebo pills or something. I didn't feel any effects haha. Even though I took 2
Gonna try to get a refund lmao
No.7122
>>7119>Friday night>taking mollyabout to go out clubbing with some babes "liz"?
No.7123
>>7119Completely sober or just molly?
A lot more scamming happening since covid, even with small transactions.
>>7122He's going to the secret lizclub where we all take drugs, bitch about life, and watch anime while holding hands platonically on fridays.
It's weird that they ask for your social security card before entering though, and the yearly ritual sacrifices.
No.7124
>>7123I've seen that Tom Cruise movie, I don't want any part in your freemasonic secret lizclub.
No.7125
>>7123>He's going to the secret lizclub Or maybe he's just a warmblood.
No.7127
>>7122Well I took it on Friday because I preffered to have at lesst two days in which I can comeback to normal state.
I've never been in a club. Once on a concert, when I was 12. With my mom 8)
I planned to watch some cartoons or just lay in bed and do nothing.
>>7123Some failed batch I guess. It was extremely weak. My pupils were normal and no effects whatsoever.
I would say those were placebo pills but for like 4 minutes max when it peaked I felt tiny bit different.
Though I wouldn't notice it at all if I wasn't waiting for something to happen.
Screw that, I will just stay sober. Same stuff haha
No.7136
>>7127One of the few I still haven't tried, but yea I'm starting to prefer being sober mostly, seems what I'm chasing drugs won't give me.
No.7172
I love soft serve ice cream so much, it's like my favourite food. I'd install a machine in my place if I could.
No.7175
>>7172I really like pizza with sriracha on top. Crazy, but the fattiness of the pizza goes great with the spice. Also, Greek potatoes.
No.7179
>>7175try mixing Louisiana hot sauce and ranch, the two together make a great pizza dip
>Greek potatoesI love those lemon potatoes
No.7180
I wish smokes and beer were cheaper. I spend about the same amount (around $30) on them as I do on groceries.
No.7207
Few months ago I was using CBD oil for stress issues. It worked good enough but decided to stop because they literally made it twice as expensive.
On wednesday I bought vaporizer and some legal weed with high CBD and less than 0.2% of THC.
Holy cow, this stuff rules. I'm not stressing at all.
I never knew that my mind could change for better haha
No schizo thoughts, sleeping well, I can focus more easily and for longer.
It feels like all the clutter and bothering shit just turns off automatically.
This is so lovely
Didnt take it yesterday and oh my today was awful I was so tense, stressed and had tons of schizo thoughts.
So basically just like every other day but now I had a comparisment.
I will continue smoking and tell you about it after some time.
So far I didnt find any info on net that this will fuck me up on the long run
No.7210
>>7207>some legal weed with high CBDwhat's the strain's name?
No.7211
>>7207I wish marijuana was legal where I lived. I want marijuana to be legal everywhere. I probably wouldn't smoke it, but I do think it'd help a lot of people as it has for you. We do have CDB oil here though. The most expensive stuff is about $50. I actually wouldn't mind buying it. What's your opinion on the CBD oil when you were using it?
No.7221
>>7210Lemon haze 6,5% cbd, it's nice but I will get some other strains on new order because taste got boring.
>>7211I tried like 6 CBD oils (mostly from family that said it doesn't work for them)
All five were ummm overrated, like I didn't notice any change and if so then the placebo was stronger than effects.
The one that I bought was great but compared to flowers it's shit
Are you sure that cbd flowers are illegal in your location?
Makes no sense if oils aren't.
You should check
No.7229
>>7221Apparently CBD flowers are legal in my state, but they look so close to the actual stuff that stores don't want to sell them. lol.
I guess I'll go find some flowers then.
No.7231
>>7229If it works well for you and I hope for that
then get vaporizer, most likely you will need to smoke a lot of it and it's gonna be exausting to do this with pipe.
Also don't give up when it doesn't work immediately.
The effects get better with each use.
I'm at this point when I don't even "need" to smoke everyday because everything is great.
Although I do because if I stop then those schizo thoughts will come back.
In this week I felt anxious only once and this state lasted for only a quarter.
Also it was very weak compared to stuff my mind used to make before for entire day or longer.
Also depression seems to be going away slowly. Well it's my last weedlmao post, no more spam about it unless it stops working
I can recommend you xmax V2 pro, on budget and found no issues
No.7244
smoked weed with a homeless guy at the park today. it was at a park bench and all the normies walking by were looking at us
No.7274
>>7244 Why?
there two of us, but I don't use thc lol. Don't mix us haha No.7276
>>7274he asked to bum a cigarette and then offered to smoke a joint with me after I gave him one. he was drinking beer but sadly didn't offer me one of those
No.7277
>>7276Oh that's interesting :D
Similar thing happened to me once. Some drunk guy offered me to drink with him.
It was very awkward but at that time I wasn't able to say no(17y.o).
He was very loud at this park and people were looking too.
Fortunately it was dark enough.
At first I thought he was trying to hit on me or something. Although it turned out that he was getting married in few weeks.
I wish more people were like that, dumb but extremely friendly.
never seen him again, I didn't even bother to ask for name lol No.7280
>>7277yeah, I couldn't tell you the name of the homeless guy. it was nice to have someone to hang out with for a little bit, I'm glad I didn't chicken out when he asked to smoke a joint
No.7281
>>7089The department managers in the local grocery store actually where business casual. I can understand having the vest on a regular employee, but the managers should at least look nice or something. I don't even like uniforms personally. They don't wear formal shoes if anyone's wondering. Just black formal pants and a blue formal shirt with a special name tag. Easy identification. Walmart IS the worst though, so I get it.
No.7282
>>7281Liz, that post was made 99days ago.
Snap out of it
No.7305
This past week I've been feeling completely congested and worn out. I blame the damn seasonal change, summer is arriving and it's exhausting me.
No.7345
>>6522it's just a url change
No.7383
>>7382your poor heart must be going like a jackhammer
No.7384
Saturday. I played Oblivion, got tired of playing, said I was gonna do a 30 minute break, and I've been listening to music and staring into nothingness for 1 hour and 30 minutes now. I love this so much.
No.7385
No.7388
>>7384>oblivionI have never played it. Looks ugly though
Would replay Morrowind instead.
I envy your ability to do nothing. It is impossible for me, feeling extremely uncomfortable.
No.7389
>>7388The faces are better and more varied than Morrowind, but it's still ugly. I like Morrowind better at least. Also, I just zoned out while musoc was playing. Pretty sure I can only zone out while looking at a screen.
No.7407
Today I did almost 140 km by bike. Never ever ever. I'm basically ded. Now I'll sleep for 10 months I think.
No.7408
>>7407brutal, and on regular bike I take it not an ebike. hope you didn't have too many hills to go up
No.7409
well you're certainly doing your job today Mr Sun :( I feel like I'm going to sweat to death
No.7410
>>7409This summer is the worst. I had never experienced one so brutal in my adult life. It's killing me physically and mentally.
No.7411
I woke up at about 10:40 AM to find out the source of a burning smell in the house. Then, I ate and drank water since I was deathly hungry, then went back to sleep until 5 PM. I then went down, ate some fast food with the family, went for a car drive as a passenger to test out a deflated tire, and now I'm here. Drinking diet Pepsi right now. Might do something worthwhile, not sure. If I do, I'll tell y'all tomorrow.
No.7413
>>7410usually heatwaves here last for 2 or 3 days but this summer it lasted for a fucking week, and we're gonna get more high temperatures over this weekend. I couldn't even afford ac if I wanted it so I'm stuck dying in the heat
No.7440
My day will be crap, it's so hot that I can not fall asleep
No.7441
>>7440I have such a hard time sleeping when it's this hot that I can't sleep until 9am. I'll just lay in a pool of my own sweat all night until I get drowsy.
No.7471
shaving is such a hassle, maybe I should grow a beard
No.7472
>>7471I would go for it Liz.
Mine is crap, when it finally reaches desired shape it looks good for a week then turns to shit.
I tried to trim it but always looks bad.
So I just grow till it stops looking okayish and start from zero.
it would be a different story if my hair was less rareI should also do something about my pubic hair. Haven't touched it in ages and it keeps smelling even after a thorough washing lol
No.7474
>>7472>desired shapething is my facial hair grows in weird, so instead of looking like Will Riker I might end up looking like a homeless guy
>do something about my pubic hairgotta keep your ballsack clean for the ladies, eh Rex
No.7475
>>7474>ballsackUnnecessary to shave it
>RexMy skin is also chafing, hurts with every move lol.
It healed recently but it's back.
I will have to deal with it, hopefully no wenches will jump me.
No.7476
>>7474>ballsackUnnecessary to shave it
>RexMy skin is also chafing, hurts with every move lol.
It healed recently but it's back.
I will have to deal with it, hopefully no wenches will jump me.
No.7477
I was doing what I usually was doing, nothing, until I saw a picture Murch from Splatoon 3, who had grown up. I looked him up on the wiki and found his original design until I decided to look up the age of Splatoon 3's protagonists. 14. The previous protagonists are now 16. I wanted to know the ages of some other characters, which lead me down to the Squid Sisters. They were 17 in the original game, 19 in the next, and finally, in Splatoon 3… 24. I thought to myself, "Wow, they're about my age!" Until I realized, no, I'm actually 27. It's a weird feeling to recognize your age. It's surreal to see these fictional characters and this fictional world.
They look quite happy and the place they're at seems quite nice. It's not the case where I'm at. It's not that the place is poor, but where I live doesn't have places to sit and socialize with people. I live in a suburb, so if I wanted to go to a place like that, I would have to go far away. Not to a city or some other town over, but to some place I have no idea about. It's not even about socializing in the first place, but having a place to go to that's not a concrete hellscape. The yards of a suburb don't count because there's nowhere to go, and the cities don't count because they're not people-centric. The nearest city doesn't even have much greenery in it. It doesn't look like a good place to live at all.
Secondly, I realize the passage of time waits for no one, it feels like I have been trapped in my highschool days while life continues to go on. I do not improve and I cannot force myself TO improve. I just wait and wait until I older and more tired. While the Squid Sisters and other real life people go on, I will continue to be in this room for the rest of my short life.
I cannot will myself to improve and I cannot find the words to the people around me to make them understand I can't do anything. I've been running in place for a while now, and I wonder if my parents will ever get the memo that this life isn't something I chose. It's like trying to walk up an escalator for me.
And I realize again (as I've done this multiple times) that even though the people in 2D land look happy, there's nothing in my society that could make people happy.
I've lost the will to write. It's the same with Japan's society too, though. Even if I break away, the things that made me happy are doubtful to make me as happy as I am. The life I thought I wanted to live has been shifted. It's all a prison cell.
No.7479
>>7477>but where I live doesn't have places to sit and socialize with people. >"It's not even about socializing in the first place">there's nothing in my society that could make people happy. Ah fuck off you socially not accepted warmboy.
This is not a place for failed normies
No.7480
>>7479Like I said, it's not about socializing. These spaces are more habitable and nicer than suburbs or long stretches of roads. It's a place to look at and enjoy. There are things you can do. You don't have to drive, be in traffic, or plan around being at these places. Where I'm at, you must drive to even the closest park, making it inconvenient for people to populate there. Other than that, there aren't any other places to go since cities and suburbs don't care about beauty. Alsp, even the nature preserves are surrounded by houses and cars. Disgusting.
You don't need to socialize to enjoy these places either. They're just places where you can do fun things and enjoy the nice architecture and greenery.
No.7481
>>7480Ah then sorry Liz I must have missed your point.
Can not relate to that at all.
That is why I got all what you wrote wrong.
Sorry
No.7482
>>7476>hopefully no wenches will jump mebe careful liz, wenches like it when the tip of your peepee is cut off and the hair around it removed
No.7484
it seems like a year ago I was paying $5 for a mcdouble meal and when it got the same thing today it was almost $8. wtf
No.7485
Slept 3 hours in total. So I decided to get to bed early today but failed.
I really like the state of sleep deprivation. Everything is so quiet, my internal voices shut up and my imagination ignites up. I have no worries in that state, all is peaceful.
But it fucks with brain, so good night lizards
No.7486
>>7485I went to bed at 9, woke up at 12pm. 😎😎😎😎😎😎
Good night lizza
No.7487
>>74869am to 12pm (noon)?
No.7488
does this still work?
No.7491
>>7490you must of been tired. when I get that much sleep every time I sit or lay down I find myself falling asleep
No.7492
I"m outside a chilis
No.7493
I"m outside a chilis where my family is. I look outside and remenber the world keeps moving. Goddamn, if not for the cars, this place wpuld be quiet.
No.7495
Yay yay yay
We can post again, awesome because my mental health has been spiraling down.
I am sure the Liz spirit will bless me now.
I most likely got addicted to caffeine
No.7497
Slept 4 hours wishing that today I will be able to fall asleep sooner.
Unfortunately it looks like I will get 5 or 6. Which is terrible because I lack few from previous days.
No.7498
I drank this energy drink called Carabao, and for a while, I could hear and feel my heart beating in my chest. I could imagine the blood circulating in my veins. I heard every heart contraction.
No.7499
>>7498Are you eleven? How one can could give you these effects
No.7500
>>7499I was smoking weed beforehand. lol. That's probably why.
No.7501
>>7500DUDE WEED LMAO
you sound like your 14
No.7502
>>7501why so harsh on him haha
No.7503
>>7502DMT is the preferred drug for lizchan users
No.7504
>>7503But you are the first on this site to admit the use of it
And ofc you get in a lizardly way by growing plants, right?
Never tried it and I guess that it wouldn't be good for my weak psyche.
No.7505
I thank Raptor Jesus for another blessed day of unemployment every day I wake up.
No.7507
>>6009drank white russians, watched videos, slept
No.7512
Today, I will consume so much caffeine that I don't even need to go to sleep during the day since my sleep schedule's fucked. Also, I will listen to a ton of anime music probably. Wish me luck.
No.7516
>>7503I will be trying this for the first time.
All my previous psychedelic experiences were rather harsh.
Wondering how it may turn out.
No.7517
>>7513I have to do it again now.
No.7522
>>7516 (late continuation)
Eh pretty interesting but expensive.
Read too much about it and was hoping for some great revelation that will change my life.
Well it was like that, but after a nap I went back to normal thinking, as thoughts from trip stopped making sense.
Had a pretty pleasant ego death.
But the whole experience was like "wow dude I'm so high lmao!".
Which I was not a fan of because there was no "wisdom" to be found.
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I have migraines like once/twice in a month. So strong that I am busy with puking and laying near toilet whole day.
Read that smoking weed helps some people or makes it worse.
Thankfully it worked wonders for me. From agonizing pain and nausea it transformed into something that felt similar to cold. Headache was still there but I was able to function normally.
Gonna stash it for emergency situations
No.7532
>>7531>hey wizchanum this is lizchan
>is anyone still aroundI don't think so
>most places on the internet are filled with toxic peoplethis place is toxic too against normies otherwise it's nice
>i wish you guys the bestthanks
No.7533
>>7532>this is lizchani keep forgetting, i guess i lurked that place far too much so it's a bit difficult to get the name out
>this place is toxicehhh, not really, a toxic place would be one that constantly gaslights the userbase with negative thoughts. or that doesn't want the best for the people in the same website.
plenty of small websites are toxic
do you still lurk imageboards? besides one that is also fairly small and slow i don't lurk anything else really. many negative experiences happened and those were enough to reject imageboard culture completely
No.7537
Also, I'm 25 now, I'd like it if we could strike a convo
No.7545
>>7537Share the best tip and some wisdom that you acquired in those years, may be more than one!
No.7546
>>7545Not much I can say, I think my best as ice would be girls and friends don't mix. If some girl talks to you, and you screw it up, and your friends asks for her handle to "help you", he's just using you.
In short, if a man asks you for a girl's contact, don't fucking give in. This fucker will ditch you and show you who he truly is after this.
No.7548
>>7546You are so warm blooded.
Must be new here, right?
No.7549
>>7548I have been in this place before (around 2020), back when I didn't really care about "girls"
After a series of events that had completely ruined my perception on how people connect with each other, I'm back to that mindset.
Still KHV mind you
No.7550
>>7549Oh I'm sorry then, tend to get pretty riled up over petty words
Making the rest of your story in my head and all that.
>How people connect with each otherIt really disgusts me the way it works. I rarely had any contact (only colleagues) but still I do not remember the last time someone decided to lend a helpful hand with nothing in exchange.
At best it was mutual, yet the reality is constant fighting off others that "need" your help.
The funniest thing is that it never paid off for me.
People get used to it and just keep pushing boundaries.
Then act like victims since how dare you stop supporting.
It took me way too long to realize this.
Partially due to my schizo thoughts which I tried to shut.
After all it turned out to be the voice of common sense which from now on I listen to closely.
>Beauty, postureThat's the thing I thought to be not important as it has no effect after people get to know you.
How wrong was I with that thought.
After visiting barber (to get photos for new resume) and getting new clothes since I was looking like a bum.
The confidence was shining from me. So people backed down from asking after I gently said so. Were not interrupting and started conversations on their own.
My voice was also heard better from that moment.
Took body language on a leash as it is rather gayish/girlish and bang:
I am seen as a whole new person also treated much better…
>ImpressionsMost people have your persona imagined in a way that is comfortable to their mindset.
Depending on how long you were showing certain traits, it may not be possible to alter their views on you.
Unless some drastic change happens, which does not guarantee anything anyway.
Because of that it is very important to attack the distorted views that someone else has about you
This is what I learned in these almost 3 years working at this company which I quit week ago.
People are shit and altruism is only to be taken advantage of.
No one knows you.
All they recognize is your body and what it did.
No.7551
>>7550>People get used to it and just keep pushing boundaries.>Then act like victims since how dare you stop supportingIt really is a kick in the dick when that happens. I basically stay alone and talk to no one because of these, people just seem like a complete game to me.
>getting new clothesNew clothes can do a real number on you, especially if you have been wearing the same clothes since your teens (which is a bit of my case sadly)
>People are shit and altruism is only to be taken advantage of.totally
No.7553
>>7551I am more of a talkative type but will always choose solitude if possible too.
Woah you must have tons of clothes or some high quality fabrics.
I have few, could pack them into a backpack.
So they get exploited pretty fast
No.7565
I can only access youTube, Google and LIZCHAN??
Please tell me that scallies took over and this is NWO.
I don't want to hear any other news.
No.7572
Wow almost completely died inside
Lost my wallet, searched through everything.
I went to check for the third time.
It was in the drawer under the slipper…
Took me an hour.
Well now it's time to get rid of useless things and reorganize shit.
It stressed me so hard that I'm shaking lol
No.7576
In bed for like a 17 hours, with breaks for puking.
Migraines are hell of a drug
No.7577
>>7576damn, that sucks. On the other hand, I just slept for almost 17 hours today.
No.7579
>>7577I'm really not a fan of sleeping that long. Always fucks up my time.
Because of that I'm currently trying to normalize hours.
I've been struggling for like two weeks already.
So far I'm at waking up at the midnight.
I guess I will settle for just going to sleep at 5pm.
After NEETing for almost a month I feel way more lost than previously.
Thought this time will help me to stabilize, set some goals or I don't know.
Expected something to change but nah, instead depersonalization started creeping in.
I wish there was some guidebook to life.
There's nothing I want to do or achieve.
Yet the craving for something (I don't know what that is) bothers me.
No.7584
>>7583>am i too naive for believing kindness is paid off in the end?Yes, you are too naive.
No.7585
>>7583If one expects to get paid, it's not kindness. If you want favors for your kindness, pick people who you know personally and see a lot. Also, pick people who you know will return favors.
Forest Anon on Youtube is living that dream already if you're interested. He answers questions and has a bunch of bingeable videos that you can scrape some information from on how he lives. He makes it look really easy except for the fact he has to walk to town for food and occasional under the table jobs.
No.7589
>>7587I don't think banning can change much given that imageboards are easy to work around with.
But, eh, what gives, kudos to you I suppose.
No.7590
>>7587And you post about to crave attention, brag about something that can be easily done or what?
Nonetheless writing about it here makes you a pitiful failed normie nigger.
I really hope you try to end your pathetic life and end up crippled in own shit
No.7594
I did a task, a step towards fulfillment
No.7595
>>7590lizzie is just having normal regular comunication
the only one that sees it like that is you
i know the internet is filled with fucks with ill intent, but he doesn't seem to be that kind of person
No.7596
>>7595>lizzieI don't think you know the meaning of it and what it stands for.
https://lizchan.org/rules.htmlWell it was fun.
I would never think someone would advocate for 3dpd banger here.
Yet that just happened.
Farewell
No.7597
>>7596You are rabid but you'll find your way.
Good luck.
No.7606
I'm pretty sure I slept from 9 PM to almost 2 PM. So almost 18 hours. Wow. Going to do some studying and watch Star Trek today, too.
No.7631
Just finished my trip to see a sibling across the country.
No.7645
Cont.
Got denied a cool position because they are looking for someone with "different set of skills".
Weird, since I was fitting all the requirements.
Told Ai to make a reply.
After that they replied with interest! Phonecall on Monday
Would be nice to land it
No.7651
>>7649Nice job liz, I'm proud of you. We didn't do anything for you though. It was your use to the AI that helped you, and I think that's a good thing. Better to have gotten the job with a tool than not to. Good luck with your new job!
