/liz/ -General

>>1863
Nvm it wasn't fake I'm just too fragile
akward

>>1864
What made it a bad trip? remember any thought patterns?

>>1862
>If he's still doing it he could kill people easily

It's common knowledge that drug dealers could care less about the harm they do to their clients.

>>1866
But that's a potential buyer lost, isn't it? I always thought that the goal with dealers is to get you hooked and to make sure you're buying from them as much as possible, and hope you don't OD or rat them out.

>>1865
I was chillin in living room then I decided to lay on my bed.
Couple of minutes passed and I heard chainsaw noise.
In front of my windows there is school that is surrounded by tall trees and there were ppl cutting branches on boomlift at 8:00 am.
I don't have any window covers and I started to freak out that they're looking at me (I think they did) so I went to living room again.
Out of nowhere neighbours that live above me had an argument,those apes often shout at each other but I didn't expect them to wake up so early since they were rather loud last night.
Trip just started and a lot of complications happend I knew that it'll be hard so I wrote down on a paper reminder that the trip will end etc.
I went to my brother's room where he has curtains. I listened to some chill and happy music but noise from chainsaws was rather unsettling. Then neighbour granny with dementia started banging at my door, I knew that there is no way that I'm going outside so I didn't answered then that oldhag shouted that she knows that I'm here and told someone on staircase how bad I am (even tho I helped her many times >:d )it all happend when my trip was building up.
I was already stressed af and started to feel pain in my tummy.
I went to bed and had OOBE where I've felt and seen every bad thing that I ever had with some additional negative surreal memories.

After comming back to my body I felt very tired, I went to living room again.
I had a thought that LSD was fake and I ODed. I wasn't sure if I lost my mind or just died and was placed in some realm for my "sins".
I felt bad for my family that I may be in vegetative state. Other than that I had no memories I felt like I was created just to suffer.
I thought that everything never happend and it was only my imagination.
It's not everything that I experienced but I doubt that I could explain it even in my native language.
After all LSD is not a substance that will change my point of view or make me do better outside like I falsely thought earlier.
Maybe it works like that on those who accept themselves and don't have problems with facing real life.
>>1837
it worked for one week only. MDing makes my social anxiety disappear for like ~36 hours which is very helpful since it's really visible when I'm stressed (my whole body is shaking hard). Unfortunately I feel like it got worse after MDing. I'm not sure if I should take microdoses till I save up for hikki life or just live with it which will be hard because I may lose many opportunities to make my dream come true more quickly.

>>1873
Sounds like a bad setting for sure, I know people that can trip in strip clubs and be super charismatic. I'm kind of similar to you where others make me uneasy. It's like I can sense that as soon as i'm around someone they'll ask me to do a ton of task or automatically sense i'm tripping.
Yea industrial noises or yelling strike paranoid dis-ease mostly around the peak.
The lying in bed thing happened to me a few times too.
Introverts just tend to be more self conscious I think and acid amplifies it, my best experiences have always been while alone, When I'm alone i'm able to be 100% comfortable even when having what someone would call a bad trip.

Harvested quite a lot of amanita muscaria today , drying it atm.
Anyliz had some experience with that redcap cutie?

Where do you get your drugs?

>>2116
Growing and rarely from a guy that I've used to play league in HS though It's rather long process, waited for acid like half a year

>>2115
I guess nobody did.
Dried cap then boiled it with lapacho tea.
It had strong flavor of mushrooms and was slimy. Not sure if it was good or disgusting, something in between.

Drank 3/4 of it because I had irrational thought about this being too much.
light enhacement in mood, felt comfy and warm, oh and calmed me down (was kinda irritated because I broke curtain)
No nausea or gastric problems.

Gonna try it again in 3 weeks or later with 2 caps

>>2119
Yea I've never tried that type before.
All my experiences with mushrooms in the past few years have all retained a pattern of the following.
>feel like i'm physically lighter
>chest feels vulnerable, fluttery
>A motherly warmth envelops my heart
>a bitter sweet self pity envelops me
>movement and noise exaggerated
>breathing plants
>previous beliefs solidify, brain can't argue against them
>default to listening to music in bed
>the music and my thoughts become a stream flowing together
>my mind feels like it's in a cocoon, or egg
>reality feels like i'm looking at it through glass
>anhedonia reminds me it's here to stay and there's no thought that can alleviate me of it
>trip ends
>>2116
extended family that doesn't like me but knows i'm a mental case that has 20$ sometimes.

>>2142
how much did You take?

This weekend I ate 1g of them and music felt great most of the trip I was cleaning.
Then got kinda uncomfortable so I decided to lay on sofa.
Didn't have any meaningful thoughts or realizations.
Day later I have visual snow, and It's still with me.
Funny that I got hppd after a small dose that showed me small visual breasthing and nothing more.
I thought that this condition appears only to ppl that abuse psychedelics or take huge doses, well that's unlucky.
At least It's not annoying me.
Looks like I shouldn't do any drugs

>>2146
2.5g
I've never had visual effects stay with me more than a day, well sometimes i'm still extra aware of movements.
Yea I hope it goes away after a few good naps, I'd rather have the increased vibrancy than snow though.

I've done DXM in the past for few times and while I think it's okay I didn't really enjoy the dirty high I got from it. Combining it with weed is extremely pleasant though.
I'm very interested in other dissociatives and I've been thinking of ordering some ketamine since it supposedly also helps with depression even in very small doses so even if I don't like it I can always use it for that.
I've only tripped properly on LSD once in the past, which was last summer but the experience wasn't that great since my teeth, which are kind of crooked and crowded, felt uncomfortable for most of the experience and I should probably get them fixed before trying LSD again. It also made me very anxious at everything but I was able to get it under control after the peak and I think I'd have easier time with it if I tried it again, especially if I ordered some benzos just in case. Might go for another psychedelic instead of LSD though since the duration is very long for someone new to psychedelics.
I've always wanted to try codeine but can't get it OTC where I live so haven't. I know I would love opiates so maybe it's a good thing I haven't tried them.
>>2116
The deep web is a very easy and surprisingly safe source but probably not the best idea unless you live alone or know no one else will check the mail.
If you get anxiety it's hell waiting for the drugs to arrive though.

>>2172
I think that growing cubensis and MDing them is a more viable choice,it worked pretty well for me + it's a fun hobby.
Codeine is hit or miss depending on how many enzymes you have in tummy,barerly worked on me and gave me a headache.
What do you mean by dirty high?
It was my favorite drug untill I started getting panick attacks and feeling of independent doom day after.
I wonder why it turned out like this since there were over 1 months breaks,it just came with age I guess.
Have You ever had OOBE? that's where the fun starts

>>2173
Growing mushrooms is something I could see myself doing in the future depending on how my next trip goes.
Dirty high as in I get horrible nausea and motor control loss and I can't think clearly at all, which does seem to be fairly normal but wasn't really fun since I didn't get much introspection out of DXM. I read that music is supposed to sound great on it but this effect was barely existent at all and alcohol alone would make music sound better for me. Highest dose I've done is 600mg which is low 3rd plateau for me and it is quite fun but the memory loss DXM causes starts getting annoying at this dose. I think I'll possibly try higher dose of it in the future but who knows since I get a gag reflex from just smelling the cough syrup nowadays while when I first tried DXM I didn't think it even tasted that bad.
I've never had an OOBE but I'm planning on getting more into dissociatives so that's definitely something I'm interested in.

>>2174
I never had any introspection on dxm other than nonsense brainfarts that were losing it's meaning after the trip.
Haha for me syrup was tasting pretty nice but after some use I started to get gag reflex as well but that's nothing compared to benzydamine and salt. The worst tasting thing ever.
I'm sure you could get it but most of the ppl don't enjoy the experience.
I've seen ppl jumping from the windows to their death and ppl hanging on noose in my shower. For me it wasn't scary but rather weird.
Oh and the comedown mostly sucks,my worst one was when I thought that I'm dying and was laying in bed for entire night sleepless. Deliriants be like.

Oh and about the update about cubensis mding, after 3 weeks of taking it and then droping my social anxiety kinda skyrocketed and I'm feeling blue.
I read a lot of good things about mding so I tried to see how it works for me and well it made me more energetic,didn't stress almost at all but I'm feeling the opposite now.
Not sure if I should md till I retire or just be awkard and anxious

>>2182
low iq bait

>>2182
simply stop being a paranoid puritan and hide the thread.

>>2182
Look, I agree with you in that drug users are degenerates, but there's no need to shit up a thread about it. Just ignore the thread whenever you see it, instead of ruining a thread that other lizards use.

>>2182
they should open a store called "drugs r us" just to piss you off

How is drug use degenerate?

>>2189
It's against his norms or he's judging by the stereotype.
Either way it's very warm of >>2182

3rd flush of cubensis this time I should have fanned them more often because few tops turned kinda dark and are slimy (not mold tho).
I had cake in a drawer for like 2 months suprisingly it didn't spoil and even gave decent yield

I've gotten used to playing horror games the rare occasion I get to trip, and it's pretty addicting. I've almost finished silent hill 3 and finished the others (that matter). Something nice about only being able to think about survival for a change.
>>2294
I really want to learn how to cultivate my own, i'm going to look into it this winter.

>>2296
I started with grow kit because I was kinda busy to do it on my own and expected to get instruction with kit,although it came without.
Dunk it in water for 1 hour then pour it out, put in bag,mist it sometimes and vent, room temperature is enough.
It does need light even tho some tards say otherwise. Some also say that you need a lightbulb under the grow but that's overkill and I didn't see any difference.
Indirecet light from window is good enough.
After harvest you can dunk it again and get from 3 to 5 yields
That's all.

Making it on your own isn't even that hard the only that You have to care about is not getting it contaminated.

If you have any questions just post it here and have in mind that there is a lot of wrong information on net

>>2764
wtf, stay the hell out of our realm you hippie warmblood!

>>2767
Lol

Tl:dr
Got wrong jewpills and tics got worse. Gotta visit neurologist since they're that potent.

My tics got worse so I visited the psychiatrist.
Prescribed me anafranil which I took immediately and trittico before bed.
Fucker choosed me wrong drugs and when went to work I couldn't formulate words then my whole body was shaking and making moves like if I was electrocuted.
Boss told me to visit another psychiatrist immediately and he even partially paid for it.
I work for him only 4weeks but I've never felt that much support even from my family
Second psychiatrist confirmed that those drugs shouldn't be prescribed to me and even if, they were really outdated and no one sane gives them.
Also she has never seen such strong tics that affect whole body. So I have to visit neurologist if pregabalin/rispsridone/alprazolam don't get rid of it.

I didn't know where to post it but I guess it's the best thread for it

>>2786

wrong thread? Btw sorry Tourettes has got you down. Hopefully one day, you may have Tourtettes, but Tourettes won't have you!

This is you, right?
>>>/b/5994

>>2790
It's right thread since it's about drugs.
It turned out that it's not tourette and most likely something different.
I don't feel any negative feelings when I'm having an attack but it's just kinda annoying.
Anyway yesterday I started taking 3rd drug and my family went batshit crazy and stole all my medication.
Just because I had a little trouble speaking and forgot where I put telephone or cigs
Fucking ridiculous.
I had much worse side effects years ago and they didn't give a fuck.
I feel so angry and have urge to kick and punch things. Probably due to missed dose. (I have never felt like that)

I have been trying kratom again. Last time was a few years ago but I didn't really notice anything. I bough a bunch of capsules this time and can't say there is much different. I either feel nothing or get really tired. Worst case I get nauseous. Actually made me puke for the first time in over 6 years.

>>2796
Chasing the first kratom high?
Why did you decide to buy it?
I'm curious what made you do it

>>2797
First time I bought it I did it because I heard it was supposed to be relaxing and chill, I imagined like the couch locked weed state, and also because it was simply a convenient drug to acquire. This time I did it because I stumbled upon a Joe Rogan clip where they talked about it and I decided to give it a second try.

>>2869
Sounds like the machine elves are going to be visiting a lot of new people.

First time Speed -
it gave me skin rash around chest next day.
19 hours and I still can feel it in my body, like weird bodyload, jaw movements and faster heartbeat.
No comedown yet and I hope there won't be any.

Don't want to think what would happen if I didn't take tiny dose.
Woah I'm so special and allergic.

Made me rethink what the fuck am I doing with my life, but still didn't figure it out.

Ketamine… Holy shit that stuff is so good.

Next day:
I'm feeling the same but like with a healthy mind or something?
No signs of depression or being annoyed with my thoughts.
Went for a walk to check the effects and oh my
It was so smooth, no challenge at all. Just felt natural (it never did previously)
Clear head with no issues describes it bests.
Really hyped to see how this substance may change my life.
Now looking forward into the future haha

Plans:
I'm going to use it like they do in therapy.
Induction Phase - 1/2 times per week
Stabilization Phase - every 2 or 4 weeks.

Tiny dose gave me so much euphoria that no drug ever did.
Also put me at peace, like all my problems just became so tiny or meaningless.
No visual distortions, my body felt light and that's it.

Few hours later I tried bigger dose.
Effects like DXM but felt much more cleaner and without annoying body load.
Expected music to sound great like on dex but for me it was really flat and low quality, just mashed together with shitty mastering.
Played anime on screen and I started gently swinging on pull-up bar with and without support on feet.
Felt so light and nice.

After getting tired and effects beggining to culminate I went to bed and continued watching.
It didn't put me into movie like other drugs can.
But I felt some sensations like shaking or gust of winds from screen.
Few times I exited full-screen but managed to get it back with no issues.
Sometimes the subtitles were illegible and my mind tried to give them meaning lol.
Watched with one eye because with both it was too hard to see.
At one point I thought that I am one of characters there and it's about me, but it didn't last long.

Some time later my whole body lost weight and feeling.
Then I totally forgot about having a body haha

Rather late and it started getting bright outside so I decided to sleep.
Closed eye visuals were interesting yet simple.
I was traveling through some space, it was full of dots each having different color and being connected to at max 3 other dots by red line that was getting darker or brighter.
Later it changed into green lines that bending into random shapes.
Something like this
https://www.stsci.edu/~marel/black_holes/graphics/mod3_q2_3.jpg\

>>3105 noooo these effects disappeared after +48h
Already huge cravings for the next time, great… hahaha
Addiction Speedrun

In therapy doses are much higher, will try it. Bit scared of k-hole though.

>Looking towards the future
That was true few hours ago, now I'm just waiting for another hit.
Eeeh, it was supposed to go differently.
Will keep you updated!

Nevermind, turned into crybaby before falling asleep and made that post above.
Woke up feeling fine.

5 days after dose:
It is really helpful, divine I would say. Gave many changes in thought processing and even more realizations.
I had high hopes yet it surpassed them in every way.
Finally found inner peace, for real!
Totally annihilated my daily suicidal thoughts.

Here is example of how well it aids me.

During conversation I became aware of some hidden trauma.
Tears came to my eyes but I managed to get my shit together in like two minutes!
Normally I would be rekt for days while playing games until total exhaustion. Truly amazing

3rd dose and everything's still great.
There won't be anything new to write about so that's my last post related to it.

My search for a mental "band-aid" came to an end.

Before that I tried many different things hoping to get some therapeutic trip/insight but it never happened.
Desperation for happiness can be dangerous.

It's best to work with specialist instead of experimenting on yourself.
Take care Lizzies

Drugs more like Stupids

>>3125 ahahah made my day!
Can't disagree

Took 50mg quetiapinum to fix my sleep shedule.
This didn't work out well and I slept 13 hours and it's even worse now.

Ket no longer has any effects against my depression.