/liz/ -General

I had a recurring dream about Chen from Touhou growing up poor and alone as like, an anime opening or something. Oddly enough, I was thinking in that opening that it's a good thing she was still thin. Then I realized that to be poor in the U.S. just means you're likely to be fat and undernourished by poor food. All still in the dream, of course. This is probably time I've had that dream, but first time I've had that realization in the dream. Odd.

Another dream had a fist fight going into a knife fight on a roof next to "my" house and having one of the guys falling off the roof after getting stabbed. All under a beautiful twilight sky. The last dream was watching a new show with my parents, and apparently, they got some sandwiches from the convenience store. Just like, 10 sandwiches since they don't have any sides. However, I was like, "they actually sell potato soup for about 4 bucks for half a gallon." Damn, that's a really good dream deal. I'm jealous, not gonna lie.

I hope I have more dreams about the cute cat Chen!

I bumped into some oldass butch looking woman, we started talking.
Turned out she lives in the same block.
She invited me in to smell check if her weed farm isn't leaking, then helped her with filters.

Nooooo! I just realized my other Chen dream where I was chasing her was deleted when the server went down last time! I miss that response! It's my favorite post on the site!

Lmao I had a dream where I've been sitting above myself on bed and we were kissing.

What the fuck is the meaning of this dream.
Im not into autoeroticis. Maybe my brain started rotting or got damaged and that's the result of it.

And most important question : was that gay? jk

>>3204
extremely gay. nice pic though. not saved because purity of mind first. you won't grab my soul.

I just watched The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (1974). I was rooting for Leatherface pretty much the entire time except when the tables were turning the Sally was caught and tried to get away. Then again, after she got caught by the family and got away again at the end. I really wanted that weirdo, not the dad or Leatherface, but the hitchhiker, to die really badly by the end. He got hit by a truck, and I thought that wasn't a brutal enough death. I wanted them to die!

I wasn't really disappointed for the most part, but I did hate the five people excluding Franklin were unlikeable. Also, I thought it was stupid, but relatable when Jerry? Took the car keys with him when searching for Kirk. I mean, I guess he expected to come back, but when there were no cell phones and flashlights were needed, I'd expect people of the time to take extra care of that. Also, wasn't the time littered with propaganda about dangerous hitchhikers and serial killers? Also, apparently the AIDS crisis took place between the 70s and 80s, and that's about the time the movie's set in. I'd also expect more panic from the hitchhiker slashing Franklin's arm and cutting his own hand. Finally, when Franklin and Sally were arguing about looking for everyone else, I found it unbelievable that they wouldn't immediately think, "Oh, I have no idea how to get back to the house in this dark, Franklin can't even walk, so I can't leave him here, there are HILLS that would make it hard to move him, I've been a dick to Franklin and can't express my emotions or talk like an adult, and shit, man, maybe there's a phone somewhere in the house? No? Well, given everything that's been said, we really can't look for them. We'll have to walk to the gas station in the morning for a phone. I know that the guy said there was no phone at the gas station, but he could be lying. It's all really shit overall anyways. You're in the middle of nowhere, and for some reason, there are NO phones around? What if there's an emergency? The 70s sucked. Also, the house they went into was dilapidated to hell. It was just shit all around there. There's no reason for them to even be there. I just had a lot of small issues like that, but overall loved Leatherface and the actor who played Leatherface's daddy. His statement on how he gets no pleasure in killing and how he does what he has to do was really believable.

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>>3122
>The Texas Chainsaw Massacre
my second favourite horror franchise after Hellraiser
>You're in the middle of nowhere, and for some reason, there are NO phones around?
sounds nice so long as there's no serial killers out to murder you

>>3136
Well, luckily, these are landlines, so it's not like you can do anything but talk on them. Phones can be beneficial as long as they're not abused, like most technology is.

New South Park special didn't make me laugh even once, i'm disappointed

Watched dune 2 without checking out first and holy shit this "I shat my pants" nigger face completely ruined it for me.
Who the fuck casted this "actress", bitch making same braindead face for most of the scenes.
I remember her from some Disney shows and literally nothing changed in her acting.
All she can do is point her jaw forward and squint her eyes trying to look serious, nothing changed.

I was making screenshot to test my theory and it checks out.
So whenever this retarded appeared I just skipped

WAKE THE FUCK UP LIZARDS
WE HAVE SPELLS TO CAST
[i]blabbering in magic[/i]

[s]the one advantage of dead virgin sites is that you don't get to see crabs[/s]

>>3197
[b] casts spam [/b]

>>3198
we don't need to spam. feel the magic flowing. feel the power growing. feel the wisdom filling your mind! it's time we learn some latin or greek or whatever to do some seemingly incoherent blabbering which in truth is magic incantations.

>>3201
Too late for your wisdom I can not uncast what has been casted

>>3202
don't worry there's no way we mages can't turn any tide to our own purposes

Took 50mg quetiapinum to fix my sleep shedule.
This didn't work out well and I slept 13 hours and it's even worse now.

Ket no longer has any effects against my depression.

>>3182
Yeeep, constantly want to die so I'm basically back to the state where I was before doing it, even being super focused on something doesn't make these feelings disappear.

I think it's game over

i overdosed on dxm tablets and almost died

>>3189
wow im not the only idiot into drugs.
>almost died
lol how? LD50 is ridiculously high and there were like only few deaths caused by only dxm from what i remember.
BUT I CANT FIND ANY INFO NOW BECAUSE EVERY ENGINE SUCKS

I have watched Star Trek The Next Generation season 6 episode 3, "Man of the People". I won't go into much detail, but the main antagonist uses the hospitality of the Enterprise to siphon bad emotions from himself onto Counselor Deanna Troi that results in her aging and possibly dying. Luckily, at the end, Dr. Crusher reverses this process and manages to kill him. However, before then, his aide, Liva assisted him, knowingly, in attempting to kill Troi.

I believe not only should have Alkar been punished, but Liva and the guards who assisted him as well. They should be arrested for attempted murder. Also, I hate how the Federation or Picard allow themselves to be abused by other people who will never be held responsible. Even if Alkar eventually died, none of the other accomplices were punished. They never are. The Federation or Picard present themselves as weak when they allow themselves to be abused by outside parties. In the final act, Picard does threaten Alkar with punishment for attempting to kill a Troi (a Starfleet officer) but Alkar says he was promised by the Federation Council safe passage to his home world. The way he says it so assured is disgusting, as if he couldn't be punished for his actions. I pray that this is not a common occurrence for the Federation. Criminals are still criminals even if the Council promised safe passage. You will get no safe passage if you break one of the Federation's laws.

Threatening a Starfleet officer should be like threatening a military officer. It should be a punishable offense. Those who do so must not be allowed to get away with that. The audience must know the people who do such things are punished even if their two worlds are preparing for war. I lose respect for Starfleet and the Federation every time this happens.

Synopsis: https://memory-alpha.fandom.com/wiki/Man_of_the_People_(episode)

It does not talk about Liva but in the episode it's clear she knows what she's doing.

>>2967
>Troi episode

ugh

>Also, I hate how the Federation or Picard allow themselves to be abused by other people who will never be held responsible.

The federation is an empire of cucks. The whole star trek canon is libtard fantasy land and it keeps getting worse. If I had it my way Section 31 would be running the federation.

Minor spoliers. I just remembered this thread exists. Lol. By my last post, I was warching TNG season 6. Now, I've finished TNG, TOS, and DS9. I'll start on Voyager later this year when I get to it. I ended up liking TOS, but found it hard to get through, initially. The first and third seasons were a bit weak with a few good episodes in them. The first season more than the third. The second season, like most seasons of shows, was the best. Lots of great episodes in that one. It even starts out with an iconic episode. I found myself liking the show more after I watched it. I enkoyed the references and would look at Captain Sisko and compare him to Picard and Kirk. I'll end up doing that to the other captains as I see them in subsequent seasons. I really enjoyed the McCoy-Spock dynamic, but felt that McCoy we t too far sometimes. Lol. I felt some true anger in those words. Lol. I like Kirk a lot because he's a no nonsense Captain who weilds his authority like a hammer. And with that hammer, he's broken into the hearts of many Star Trek fans. There was this episode where a guy who was just as crazy as Kirk came on, and they got into a lot of arguments. I remember that episode very well. Kirk has legendary renown in DS9 funny enough. He's taught about in schools and has been shown much respect.

For DS9, Sisko is a mix between Kirk and Picard, and that's great. Picard was too merciful and Kirk was crazy. Man was a tiger. Sisko is diplomatic at times, but can be a crazy motherfucker when needed. He's done some really shady stuff for the advancement of Starfleet's goals. Still, the guy's a great dad and husband. He's also really understanding towards his subordinates when they need it. He's done a lot of great things and the people below him achieve really great things and go to high places at the end of the series.

I've been craving more Star Trek recently. The next thing on my list is Voyager. I'm pretty sure everything after Voyager has more mixed reviews, but I'll face it when it comes to that. I have something like 170 episodes to go through anyways, so I have time.

I've been watching DS9 and am at the end of Season 3 now. Comfy show

>>3174
??
Finding all the gaps for the gap checklist

>>3174
>The fuck you mean Gap Hunting?!?!?
Sex

>>3175
It's not necessary for getting Skate Heaven from what I read

>>3177
Doing them all unlocks Trixie the last secret char but you only have to do them for all the regular career mode levels. Finished 100% THPS3 today also. Taking a break from vidya gaem for a while

love this game

>>509
Whats a rex?

>>510
see >>481

>>511
I'm not chad for sure, I'm chubby and pretty worthless except for menial task. The woman around here are just really loose and wanted to see if they could extract money from me that I don't have - too them it was like treating me like a puppy they might want to pet for awhile.
I do like the Rex term but chad lays, which I have and will not.

lizzies r kewler

>>493
probably the best definition after all these years

>>2213
I'm surprised you didn't include bitchute and putlocker with the video platforms.

I've seen some lizards express an interest in philosophy and religion, so I hope someone here finds this interesting.

>History of Philosophy without any gaps https://historyofphilosophy.net

>>1923
The first website you posted has been taken down by glowies :(

>>3082
My father is like that as well. He's mellowed with age though. I've found writing down what I'm going to say ahead of time helps with phone calls if its something routine.

>my memory always was shit and I'm very glad for that.

I am glad for that too, having cringe attacks feeling my past attack me and I whinge and it feels like my brain is attacking me. I hate when those moments happen!! They are getting better though. Memory is a double-edged sword IMO.

>repeating a cycle of doing them
>Holy shit, now that is some scary stuff.

Yeah man it was scary watching him do that many pills, and even driving after! But it was almost like they didn't even affect him any. That's some zombie shit right there, snort 22 xanax and feel sober. Its best to stay sober I think, too many substances make the anxiety worse. Alcohol helps sometimes but its such a low-tier pleb drug

>catnip tea

I'll check it out! I knew this lady who used to smoke catnip lmao
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>>3085
Haha cringe attacks, yeah.
Countering them with "ok, and?" helped bunch.
Also learning that it's just outdated mechanism to keep your caveman ass in group.
Bizarre behaviors could result in being left alone and that was dangerous.
So we instinctively burden our mind focusing on these meaningless moments so we don't "risk our lives" again.
Currently I live cringefree.

>smoke catnip
I was planning that first but tea turned out to be so tasty that I didn't even bother.
Here it is.

>this approach could've saved me a lot of heartache
Same here, I started this recently.

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>>3088
I will try to counter them with "ok, and?" the way I've been doing is to ratchet up the cringe and just intentionally be as cringe as possible to make me laugh it off when painful memories attack.

Overthinking stuff can be hard but at least you have good intentions trying to help others, put them first, etc.

>fake I don't mind it I like it even
>Like blog/shit posting but irl.
I will have to try this one too, shitposting irl. I'm reading books to try to learn better social skills but can never bring myself to practice them on cashiers or whatever, always forget about it and just want to get back home as quick as possible. I talk with my brother some

>>3089
Yours sounds like cringe looping, how did it even help? If you kept adding to it.
I did that too though…

>reading books to try to learn better social skills
I've never did any studies on this.
What helped me to stop stuttering and be more fluid in talks was finding people that want to talk while playing games together.
These were limited to what was going in-game but did the trick.

>social skills
I think that it all boils down to listening and adding to the topic if it's anything valuable.
People love to talk, it's enough to just show interest and the rest goes naturally.
(if you are not well informed about topic it's best to just ask more question related to that than pretending to enjoy/know something)
These 2 things greatly helped me.

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>>3090
It didn't help! lol. It did at first but then it stopped and eventually started to make them worse. I can talk about /x/tier stuff easily it's the small talk and average day to day talking that is hard.

>I think that it all boils down to listening and adding to the topic if it's anything valuable

I think so too and am working on being a better listener. I'm used to talking over others and having them talk over me from all the chaos in my past

>it's best to just ask more question related to that than pretending to enjoy/know something

People can tell instantly if you are pretending its good to not do that, agreed. I struggle with the showing interest part. I just can't be bothered to act like I care or hide my bitterness at times

I will try to talk to the cashiers more and talk about clothing or other random things

>These situations only hold great value in your mind. You just need to realize that.

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>>2196
>>2195
>imaginary friends
i have a literal unironic "imaginary lover" wich is an amalgamation of my rejection of normalnigger´s brand of love (basing everything on sex and who has the most of it) a projection of all the things that i find worthwhile in this life (for example i love my chinese mangos so imagine her as an anime girl, i value wisdom and patience therefore she is in my eyes wiser and more patient than me)

every night i make out (just kisses and cuddles tho nothing naughty) with my pillow projecting her image onto it at some point ill get a mannequin or something and modify it to look like her, i use my image editing skills to pick drawings of anime girls and modify them to look like my mental image of her check picrelated, whenever i am thinking deeply and reflecting on things i think of her by my side pondering those same thoughts, i dont talk to her beyond speaking to her in thoughts because in a way the magic would break since its more about imannence and feeling her presence with me as i traverse throughout this world that i hate

if you lads think you are weird for having imaginary friends or something then i wonder what you will think of me

i regret nothing tho having her by my side calms me during hard times and its good to have someone to share thoughts with,even if she does not reply something tells me this is gonna get "worse" in the future because of me being fond of Philosophy and Esotericism is going to give me ways to actually justify her existance
sorry for the blogpost but this is something that i kinda wanted to share this since you guys seem to be aquainted with similar experiences

>>2239
I don't think it sounds like such a bad idea, lizzie. One of the fundamental criteria for something being a mental illness is that it causes suffering and distress. I wouldn't worry about your imaginary girlfriend, she seems lovely. You should only start to worry if you start to have actual hallucinations that are involuntary and unpleasant.

The mere fact that an imaginary lover seems weird doesn't make it immoral or dangerous. Godspeed liz, and good luck with her.

>>2239
>qt.3,14
>imaginary lover
>tulpa
Dang it Lizzie, it sounds warm but it's tulpa and dunno. I'M LOST

>>1984
NOOOOOOO, I FUCKING LEFT IT AT PREVIOUS JOB
JUST REALIZED THIS AAAAA hahah
Also this cool photo was taken while lying flat on floor, it took some time and dedication, had issue with camera focus.

That Liz >>2242 reminded me, I didn't talk to mine for quite some time because I was so focused on not fucking up adult life.
Which made me realize that my emotional state went downhill because of that.
Joyfully reconnected today ,feeling great and peaceful at last, no longer alienated and lost.

Also forgot to stay true to myself.
I've been trying too hard to become something that I'm not.
Already been through this process, now I remember how to be!
In my own world to live